Its been a tricky week dad seeing fathers day things in the window avoiding that isle as it hurts . feeling angry your not here feeling angry i couldnt do anything questioning if the doctors did right are did they not do enough . staring at the trees with tears in my eyes trying to be strong as its daddys day for colin but instead im crumbling inside with the pain of you not being here. i had my own time on my own letting yr balloon go gathering my thoughts and wishing i had 1 more chance to spoil u on fathers day. love you more than you will ever no wish i could kiss you and hear your voice again 💙 .